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This morning, I was looking forward to my magick training. I’d had another relationship end last Tuesday, and I hadn’t done much new magick in that week. I was excited to be back to normal.
But I just wasn’t quite there. Each time I opened my notes, I stared at them for a minute, then put them down. I couldn’t focus, couldn’t find the right mental posture. It just wasn’t working.
I tried introspection, thinking about what I wanted, seeing if I really believed in my plan. And I did: It’s a good plan, this is what I need to learn next, it’s a skill I care about knowing. Introspection didn’t help.
I gave in for the morning, watched a movie and played some games. That didn’t help either. Not that I was terribly surprised.
Then I remembered my post about physical exercise getting me out of a depression. I had made good on my resolution to exercise more, first doing curls with a coffee table to make sure I would actually exercise, then buying some adjustable dumbbells. I’d used them until the breakup, then had let them rest for that week.
I did a set. It was fast — I’d lost some strength from resting. But I worked until my arms couldn’t move the weight. Then I went back to my keyboard, rested for another 10 minutes. Then I did the magick training. And everything just worked.
Physical exercise fixed my resistance today. Have you had a similar experience?If you liked this post, consider visiting my current blog at mikesententia.com.