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Something I’ve seen in so many personal biographies on using magic / energy sensing — most ‘just happened’ at some point or another and then they are off to the races. I am hoping this next section of ‘initiation’ looks at that critical moment of ‘ah ha’-ness so a person following your procedures can get a clue as to what is going on at ‘that moment’.
I wish there were some epiphany I could package up for readers. Heck, I wish there was simply an amazing moment to tell you about, to inspire you to find your own epiphany. There never was for me, and I don’t think there is for most people.
Here’s what my journey into magick looked like:
Start noticing energy in people, trees, the ocean, etc. Or maybe, start expecting to notice energy, and feeling tingles via placebo. Or maybe both. I don’t know, and I don’t think there’s anyway to find out today what happened those 20 years ago.
Get bothered by spirits draining my energy. Fight them off. Learn about shielding and making connections and the like. Except, maybe those headaches were just from doing magick wrong, and had nothing to do with spirits. Most likely, both of those happened at various points, but again, I don’t think there’s any way to find out 20 years later.
Attempt a few dozen things that failed. Runes for energy healing: Failed. Thinking about events as real things you can move around: Failed. I’m sure there are more, I don’t remember my work well until I started keeping notes in my 20s.
Eventually, I started to get traction. Ethereal software, which I called “systems” at the time. Breaking an energy signature into smaller sub-units, which is important for sensory connections. More recently, an understanding of communication. There was no one moment where I went from non-mage to mage or from novice to experienced. It was just a series of figuring out little bits, slowly, with lots of failures along the way. Though if I had to pick one skill to mark where I really started to get it, that would be good sensory connections.
That’s why I can’t share my epiphany with you: I never had one. There was no moment, just 20 years of slow progress.
And, wow, that sounds kind of discouraging, doesn’t it? Here’s the thing: My goal isn’t to get you to follow my path. Heck, I don’t even know if it would work again, for me or for anyone else. There was too much luck in the questions I asked and the mentors I met, both human and spirit.
Instead, I’m working to create a new path for my book. But it won’t look like an epiphany, either. Just a more reliable series of exercises, using better tools than I had (particularly the book’s ethereal software). But once we finish debugging that path — that means you and me, dear readers, collaborating to test and debug this — it should help whoever wants to learn magick to do so. Which I think is what Kol is really asking for. We’ll cover this in Part 2 of my book, which should start soon.If you liked this post, consider visiting my current blog at mikesententia.com.