Palliative Magick for a Dying Friend

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A woman I love is dying of cancer.

We lived together. Grew together. Dreamed together.

We shared almost a decade.

I broke her heart. She’s monogamous, I’m not. I didn’t know that when we started dating.

We haven’t spoken in over a year. A few emails, a birthday card, but no window into each others’ lives.

I’d imagined us reconnecting, years from now, after her pain faded. Imagined a deep friendship.

Today I gave up that dream.

My study turns to palliative care. Magick to reduce pain and nausea. Magick to ease sleep, or increase energy. One final gift for one of the loves of my life.

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5 Responses to “Palliative Magick for a Dying Friend”

  1. George says:

    Mike – Thoughts are with you.

  2. Christina says:

    Deepest sympathy to you and to your old friend. May all passages be gentle.

  3. Death is an initiation for the dying and for the living. It is an opportunity to open our hearts, forgive, and vision.

    It breaks us down and holds a possibility of breaking us open.

    Know that I am holding you both tenderly in my heart.

  4. Thank you. Your thoughts and condolences bring me comfort and help me know I’m not alone. It’s wonderful having this community on this blog. Thank you.

  5. leeshka says:

    Facebook suggested that we might know each other, which led me to this post. She has helped to make me the woman I am today. Someone who can believe in the power of herself. Someone who can trust her instincts. I just. I have no words. I’m not even sure why I’m writing this except to say “Yes! This is a beautiful spirit who has given so much to so many!” That’s all. I just needed a place to write it. Thank you for this.

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