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We all have stories in our heads, unrealistic expectations that keep us from fulfilling our calling. Sometimes they even keep us from contemplating our calling.
Here’s my paralyzing story: If I were skilled, I’d be able to produce instant, unmistakable results from energy healing, then pluck any information from the ether through manifesting. I’d be able to demonstrate magick for anyone who asked, and it would be easy.
Do I really think that? Of course not. That’s maybe what a mature science looks like, or perhaps a company that’s been operating for decades. It’s where we finish, not where we start.
And yet, when I focus on learning magick or creating Healing Lab, that story creeps up, oozing doubts and fears and resistance.
Everyone has these stories, but nobody talks about them. So these stories isolate us, and they become stronger. That’s why I’m sharing this today.
What are your stories? And what are you waiting to start?
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Spirits often give me information. Sometimes I do just get like one short info but nothing more.(I just get it like a message that repeats itself if I ask again. )
Often when I get this, I am not able to explain in a chain of arguments why I know what I know. It is a very strange feeling that makes me often feel like an imposter, because I always seem to be looking for another explanation why I have this in mind. Always questioning my sensations and looking if I am making it up, although it has been prooven right more times than I can count, every now and then I stumble over this disbelief. While it may be good to be vigilant, if it is not balanced it gets annoying and causes me to be less effective then I would be without it.
I hope someday I can look back and say that’s resolved :-)
This is a common experience with information from psychic intuitions, spirits, etc. I hope someday these things are more mainstream and talked-about, so people like you can share their experiences and insights and not feel isolated by them.
Mike, the honesty of your post inspired me to start something I’d been putting off: looking for a car. Luckily, it went good. Sometimes it’s okay to put something off in order to gather more information or if the time isn’t right, but hesitating out of fear is another story. I realize now getting the car is going to help me create the life I want, and I’m excited!
Although I had a vague idea of what “imposter syndrome” meant, I looked it up to be sure. It’s when a person is creative, intelligent, high achieving, and yet they sometimes doubt this and feel like a fraud. This comes up for me when I think about my art therapy degree because I don’t have licensure. There are still jobs I can get without a license, but it’s definitely a sticking point.
My internal story goes something like this: “I’m not good enough. I’m going to mess up and do it wrong. They might laugh at me. If only I were healthier, prettier, smarter. I don’t have time, money, or energy. Nobody loves me. I’m all alone. Am I ever going to find my way back, peace of mind, and relief?”
Obviously, a lot of that is bullshit, my insecurities talking. I wrote that the other day, and then realized I have a few more stories I tell people: “My dad died. He was an alcoholic. I had breast cancer. I have chronic pain and fatigue.” While these stories are true, there’s a way to say them that doesn’t invite sympathy or perpetuate a victim mentality. It’s important to identify habitual thought patterns, the way they keep us stuck, become our identity, and prevent future happiness.
From what I can tell from your blog, you are skilled, and no one expects you to demonstrate magick reliably on the spot. Try not to put energy healing in the same category with surgery or something else that gets immediate results. Look what the immediate results of chemotherapy did to me. I have to live with nerve pain. The other day, a doctor so kindly pointed out to me that my nerves are damaged forever, and she offered no solutions. I think energy healing sounds a lot more gentle and friendly.
It sounds like you put a lot of pressure on yourself and while that’s good, it means you care, it can undermine your ability to provide the healing that you can provide. It seems as though you’re judging your method of healing and because it doesn’t exactly mesh with what the majority thinks or another mainstream healing method you find it lacking somehow.
On a recent plane flight, the lady sitting next to me said, “You are unique, everyone is unique. Don’t forget that.” I think this applies here, and how we can combat the imposter syndrome when it sneaks up by remembering we’re given talents and it’s when we don’t use them that we provide a disservice to ourselves and others. I know this is true for me, and maybe it’s true for you as well. Thanks for the interesting post, it made me think :) Julie